Choosing between love and your dreams...

I had this suitor from one of this websites and I met him and we had two dates to be exact. He wasn't that much good looking but I did find his enthusiasm with me rather endearing. So within a few weeks he was already in my system yet we were not still together because I'm still trying to know if I could be with him.

So yesterday, it was a Sunday, I went to the gym and when I got out he was there along the plaze right in front of the gym. He told me he was texting me telling me that he was within my village's vicinity. So with after a few talks he strode with me towards the bakeshop, had a couple of short snacks and then I told him I had to go because I had to go to church. He asked me if he could go with me but I resented but he still insisted on the deal that he would not approach me for I was with my sister.

Trouble came when it started to rain hard and I texted him telling him I wouldn't be able to go anymore because it was raining cats and dogs outside. A few minutes passed and i texted him again telling him I would be able to go already.

Unfortunately, he was on his way home so I thought that's okay. I started exchanging text messages with him telling him how sorry I was to have led him to wait for me at the church. An hour passed and he had this message for me:

" There was no electricity in our house tonight I sent you some mobile load why aren't you still texting?"

Then there was this other message again that followed:

"Sorry baby that message was not for you, I just had the mistake of forwarding that to you because you know how much I miss you"

I thought to myself, "Is this guy trying to fetch more guys other than me?"

So what I did was tried to contemplate and within a few hours of thinking I decided to cancel the date we're suppose to have this week and also told him to not contact me anymore.

He's been trying to call since trying to explain his side.

I answered one of his calls just to make the separation more formal. I mean with all the efforts he'd push through he deserves that.

His explanation? He said that the guy he's referring to was someone he had met who was according to him "straight" but decided to give him his number. So what he did was send him some electronic load for his mobile phone but he's still not courting that guy. He's just texting him.

Of course, what else would be my response? I shut him off from his call and just told him to stay away from me already and just move on. I mean what kind of lousy explanation was that?
Could you possibly expect me to believe that it was a rational and acceptable excuse? Come on. You have got to be kidding me.

Anyway, due to that I simply reminded myself of my past relationships and how it didn't work. I now decided to focus on the upcoming board examinations for my license and just think something good will come out from it. Well, that's a lot better than being stuck with a suitor with a lame excuse like that. Wish me luck guys!

Brains or Body?

This past weeks I've been going to the gym just to get buffed up. You see I'm not really the muscular type. Actually I'm more of the skinny type so to boost my self-esteem I decided to do something about it and then hit the gym.

A few weeks have passed and I did notice the changes that were happening to my body and I was happy about it. Some of my friends actually notice it too. Unfortunately for me a week ago I started having stomach cramps so I went to see a doctor. The physician said that I might have amoebiasis and I need to stop eating gas forming and stomach irritating foods. If you actually think about it, that's almost every food I know. So from then on with the diet I have the weight that I gained from exercising in the gym and eating much to buff up suddenly went to it's original size and I feel somewhat low again.

I really feel that I wasted a lot of effort and time into doing this and then suddenly just one medical condition would bring me back to square one. Well, now instead of hitting the gym I just simply put my thoughts here. Funny huh?
I just thought to myself that maybe it isn't the proper time yet to get the body that I wanted. That's because just a few days from now I'll really stop going to the gym because I have to move to somewhere else just to get prep up for my licensure examination.

I just really hope something really good would turn out of this situation because if not then that would be a real disappointment for me.